Wisdom is not primarily knowing the truth, although it certainly includes that; it is skill in living. For what good is a truth if we don’t know how to live it? –James, Introduction
When I hit rock bottom, the only place to look is up, however, so often I fail to do so.
I don’t know what it is about uncertainty, but something about it is horrifying me lately. When we used to live the baseball life, it was the uncertainty that I loved so much. Where would we go next? Where would we live? How long would we be there? Now that life is a little different, the fear of the unknown, of what’s next, what’s to come, has left me feeling rather confused and a little lost.I have suddenly become a worry-me-not, the kind of person I used to never understand. Why would I worry about something that is out of my control?
A friend of mine once said, “In high school, our teachers try to prepare us so much for college, giving us horrible exams and justifying them by saying, “Just wait until you go to college! This will help prepare you.” But once we get to college, no one really ever prepares us for what to do the day we graduate.” I guess that’s when it’s time to figure it out for ourselves. Why is it that life seems so complicated once we have that degree in hand?
As many of you know, Dustin is graduating in just a few short weeks (hip hip hooray!), with only a slight idea of what he plans to do next; however, don’t let this fool you, he seems to have no worries at all. He knows, understands, and truly believes that God will always take care of what is to come. I know this too, however, I still have so many worries. WHY?? I don’t know.
In May, I will be graduating as well, however, right now is the time that I have to decide which internships to apply for, if I even want to apply to any, and if or if not I want to complete a Master’s degree. Might I remind you that the only way I can sit for the R.D. exam in order to become an R.D. is if I complete an internship, so why in the world am I having doubts about even doing this? I’m almost finished with my second degree and now I’m having doubts? What is wrong with me!? Why can’t I make up my mind? It’s not that I don’t love nutrition, it’s that I fear I am supposed to be doing something else. I’m sure most of you are thinking, “WHAT? You doing something else, Ashley?” Me too.
So finally, I’m handing it over to God. In this life, I believe that God calls each of use to do something. He gives each of us a unique trait that allows us to do exactly what He chooses. I believe (and will no longer doubt) that I have found exactly what He has called me to do, and that is to help others in a field that I am so passionate about: nutrition. I want to help people get healthy the only way possible – by listening to God and doing as He says.
By writing this out, I can clearly see that it is time to let go of any worries, for they have already been taken care of.
It’s time to start living and stop worrying.
In everything he did he had great success because the Lord was with him. 1 Samuel 18:14
So regardless of any doubts, we can find success so long as the Lord is with us. Which brings me to another post… My December goals; coming shortly!